It isn't that you don't see eye to eye, its that your eyes are closed. You can't see when you are blinded by judgement. I never quite got that saying. I always saw it as one person being taller than the other...but thats not it at all. I go through it everyday. I am blinded by my judgement and see everyone as foolish words. It isn't that at all. I need to remove this judgement from my life, for then I will see.
Ty was a piece of work.
He'd leave bruises on my body and love bites all over me...goodness the way the boy made me feel. I was on a drug and it was called Ty. Except...Ty was really on drugs and his slurred words brought me back to reality. His shoves to make me lie on my back were weak. He wanted to just rip my clothes off.
Ty needed help, we all knew it.
His home life was shit and all he wanted was to be loved and to fit in. I pitied him more than anything. His dad acted as if he was a step father and his mother's heart of gold turned to stone when she found her priceless jewelry missing. (Ty stole it to feed the addiction) He promised me the world though, and I only fed on the lie.
Claire(noun)- Blood sucking leech who couldn't help but stick her slimy fingers into the pants of who I loved.
Claire had been jumping from A to Ty on the opposite times that I was on either of them.
I couldn't take the slurred "I love you" or "Marry me" anymore. I was free. Heartbroken, but free.
But A couldn't just leave me alone...He met my eyes one day in the hall and hit me with that straight toothed smile that always made me ache...so I texted him.
Soon enough I found myself lying to my mom and spending the night with another couple at A's house. In his room we were alone while our friends were "showering"..
A convinced me to give myself to him.
It ruined my whole world.
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